i know, i know, i know...2 posts in 1 week, what a shocker! i just feel like this one is absolutely necessary. today when i got home from work, one of my roommates told me that one of our other roommates was going home for a few days. when i asked why, she told me that her step-mother had passed away. that made me really sad. not just cause she had lost her step-mom, but cause if i had lost my step-mom or anyone close to me for that matter, and especially if i was out here, i would be an absolute wreck. it really hit close to home cause i have a step-mom, and i love her and miss her so much. i honestly don't know what i would do without her in my life...pretty sure i would go crazy. yeah, she's my "step-mom", but she's also my friend. it's kinda weird that she's only 10 years older than me, so the step-mom title, is just that....but it's ok, cause it's like a step-mom/friend/sister all rolled into one. pretty sweet if you ask me. the loss of one of my roommates family members also hit really close to home cause she is from michigan. i did not know this until today. what a way to find out huh? actually, the way i find out was...she was packing some clothes and things to take home and she pulled out a michigan shirt. so, i of course said "nice shirt, actually, love the shirt", which she then asked if i was from michigan, and then of course we got to talkin about how crazy michigan is. she's from the bay city area. if any of you wouldn't mind please send some prayers up for her and her family. i'm sure they could use them. please pray for safe travels for her [to and from this wonderful place], and also for healing during this tough time. i can't even begin to imagine what she is going through right now. like i said, i would be an absolute wreck, especially if i was unable to go home and be with my family.
so, anywho, i'm sorry this post isn't all that happy and cheerful, but it's just been not so good of a day. it's one of those days where i want to crawl into a hole and just chill there for awhile...and maybe...no definitely cry a little...a lot. right now, i feel like anything could set me off into a whole lot of waterworks. i don't want to cry here cause it's not "marine like" to do such a thing. but if i can't help it, i can't help it. i can't wait for sunday to get here. i have a feeling church will make me happy again. so, i guess please continue to pray for me. pray that the rest of my time here will go as well as can be expected. pray that i won't go crazy and somehow manage to stay sane. and also, pray for all the troops out here, that we will ALL make it home safe and soon.
thank you from myself and all the troops out here. it really means a lot.
until next time,
~stef
p.s. let me just point out that this post may be a lot about my step-mom, but that's not because i love her more than my mom, dad, grandma, grandpa, sister, brother, cousin, friend, whatever...it's because my roommate lost her step-mom, so that got me thinking about my own step-mom. trust me, i love you all and i don't know what i would do without any of you!
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Stef, I'm thinking of you. My last several devotions have been about how God is ALWAYS surrounding us and protecting us. Psalm 34:7 says The angel of the Lord ENCAMPS (I love that word) around those who fear Him and he delivers them. Remember that God is always with you surrounding you with love and protection. The prayers of many are heard by God for you. I know you know these things...but sometimes it's nice to be reminded by someone who loves you. I also love Psalm 34:4 I sought the Lord and He answered me; He delivered me from all my fears. When you feel like crying but hold it in God still feels sees your tears. He is your comfort. I will pray that your friend has safety in travel and peace in her soul. Love you much! Thanks for the update.
ReplyDeleteHugs & Prayers, Cindy <3
About 2.5 months into my deployment last year, I lost my Dad and that experience was one of the most difficult things ever for me. My unit made it as easy as possible for me and got me home as quick as possible, but it was still tough going through the grieving process while in Iraq. I wouldn't wish that on my worst enemy.
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Oh Stef, my heart goes out to you. I'm so sorry to hear about your roommate's loss. I will pray for her and I will pray for you. Thanks for the call on Sat. Sorry I missed you. Remember I love you and pray for you and think of you every day. Stacey
ReplyDeletecrying right along with you, and yes, it is ok to cry...God keeps each one in a bottle, it says so in Psalm 56:8
ReplyDeleteI am sorry you are hurting, thank you for sharing with us so we can pray for your roommate and for you specifically, I am having one of those days too where I am hurting and needed some encouragement, I read a blog post from my sister in laws page and copied it to mine the song: Your Hands by j.j. heller is so beautiful this is what she wrote:
How comforting to know that when MY world is falling apart, crumbling and shaking like a violent earthquake, heaven remains constant. One of my favorite names of God in the Bible is
I AM. Not I was. Not I will be. I AM.
He is.
Constant.
Steadfast.
Permanent.
And if that doesn't give me Hope, nothing will.
You can read more on my blog if you would like too
http://pam-embracinglife.blogspot.com/
I love you Stephanie, and am praying for you sending lots of hugs your way...<3
Prayers Sweetie, always prayers for you. Pastor Mike prayed specifically for your today.
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